I’m OBSESSED with connecting the dots from then until now, OBSESSED with understanding that I’ve been on this earth for almost 60 years, OBSESSED with remembering how I spent the 21,871 days between the day I was born and today, OBSESSED with this quote from Mary Gordon.
She sees that she has before her an important task: to understand that all the things that happened in her life happened to her. That she is the same person who was born, was a child, a girl, a young woman, and now she is old. That there is some line running through her body like a wick.
–Mary Gordon, The Rest of Life
1973: Every day that passes after I turn 16 and can drive myself away from the restrictions that are my family, the happier I am. The Best of Bread comes out, and I play it over and over again. Baby, I’m a want you… The Vietnam War is finally over, but it stays with me. Trying to understand, I read books written by POWs. That summer, camp is not an option–I’m too old. At the beach, it’s the Atkins Diet and getting a tan and listening to Dionne Warwick with the older guy next door who looks like Mark Spitz and has a motorcycle. My boyfriend sends me a letter, and instead of using my whole name, uses only my first name, which I think is weird. I spend a month on the Young Life Western Tour, where I’m all smiles. This photo is standing in our driveway.