Comments on: 1976: I turn 19 https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/ Catching Days Tue, 21 Feb 2017 22:52:14 +0000 hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=7.1.3 By: Claire Guyton https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8328 Tue, 21 Feb 2017 22:52:14 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8328 In reply to cynthia.

Maybe that’s what it is, that need to hang onto the life that made memories, fear of fragmentation! I’ve never thought of it that way but it makes so much sense–basically, fear of becoming another person. Whoa!

]]> By: cynthia https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8327 Tue, 21 Feb 2017 22:11:32 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8327 In reply to Terri.

Definitely one of my favorites too!

]]> By: cynthia https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8326 Tue, 21 Feb 2017 21:07:52 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8326 In reply to Sarah.

In those golden days, what I wanted was what I was good at, which makes it seem as if all I had to do was want something and there it was. And I have always been focused, perhaps too much so…

]]> By: cynthia https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8325 Tue, 21 Feb 2017 20:45:55 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8325 In reply to Claire Guyton.

Oh I love this—memories let loose like balloons rather than attached like leg irons… It was as if I had no idea I could change. I don’t know why I thought everything I did or said had to continue to make sense as a whole. In this context when I begin to fragment a few years from now, that will be progress.

]]> By: Terri https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8324 Mon, 20 Feb 2017 14:39:00 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8324 Age 19 was one of my favorites…

]]> By: Sarah https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8323 Mon, 20 Feb 2017 13:15:58 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8323 What an incredible young life you led! So self-possessed and focused–you seemed to be able to envision the future and take all the right steps in the present that would lead you toward it, seizing every opportunity along the way.

]]> By: Claire Guyton https://www.cynthianewberrymartin.com/2017/02/1976-i-turn-19/#comment-8322 Mon, 20 Feb 2017 00:02:49 +0000 http://catchingdays.cynthianewberrymartin.com/?p=20004#comment-8322 I see why you began fragmenting in your 20s, and I’m getting more envious all the time of all the life you packed into your youth. I spent my summers doing crappy jobs, staring into space, wondering how my parents could get up the nerve to create three people who would have to live the curse of knowing they will die. I sure wish I’d spent a few months of that time learning French and attending concerts….

I love that you couldn’t understand how your memories could be just that, cut loose to drift away, attached to a previous time and self. I remember having the very same problem with a dying relationship, but I would never have been able to articulate it in that way. Thank you for that little gift.

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